For my SweetiePie :)

This is dedicated for My Kid, My love, My everything.....

    You're my Honeybunch, Sugarplum
    Pumpy-umpy-umpkin, You're my Sweetie Pie
    You're my Cuppycake, Gumdrop
    Snoogums-Boogums, You're the Apple of my Eye
    And I love you so and I want you to know
    That I'll always be right here
    And I love to sing sweet songs to you
    Because you are so dear

The Original Cuppy Cake Song

March 13, 2010

March 13, 2010.... The day, the mother in me was born.. The day, my little angel saw this beautiful world.. Of course Crying :) The day, i can never ever forget in my lifetime!!!!

The day dawned as usual.. there was nothing extraordinary.. As usual i had not slept the whole night.. i was sitting in a bamboo chair the whole night, wondering when the day will break and when will i ever sleep. But i was feeling a little uncomfortable for the past 2 days and i didn't worry about it much!! Around 6 AM i felt like peeing. After that, my discomfort started increasing and i became a little doubtful. I woke up my grandma and told her. She was doubtful whether this was labor or not 'coz i didn't have any back-pain or pain around my stomach!! But since we didn't wanna take chances, we called up our doc and my doc asked me to come to the hospital around 10 AM.

Once we reached the hospital, my doc had advised the duty doc in the hospital to admit me for observation.. The duty doctors also kept telling me that it was false pain!! After some time they gave me a shot of medicine as i was complaining of too much pain, and the pain subsided..!!! Then we were generally sitting in the hospital room.. watching TV (IPL was going on :) )... and i was complaining as to why they have made me sit like this in the hospital room when i don't have any pain absolutely.. i hate hospitals!!! :(

Around 5.00 PM, my doc came to the hospital. I was happily sitting and watching IPL. She asked me skeptically "What madam.. happily sitting and watching TV..??? I heard you had Contractions???" and i was like.. "Yeah doc, i had pain in the morning but after the shot that the nurse gave me, i don't have pain at all :) (with the smiley to the doc)".. And i also thought.. "Okies.. she is gonna tell me that it is a false pain and i am gonna go home n eat the Pudina Rice my grandma had made for me :)".. you know.. pregnancy taste buds ;)

My doc, as cool as ever, checked my so-called contractions and asked me "So prithi... ready to deliver the child today??"... and i was like "WHAT????".. i mean.. i am not even mentally ready for this...I wanted to read about the labor, the pain of delivery etc etc but i had not done it.. can i have a day or two?? I had not even informed my hubby that we will be having the child today.. he was in Bangalore.. what the hell.. i wanted to eat my Pudina rice.. and SLEEP.. Doc.. i havent like slept the whole night...!!! I could not even digest what she told me!! But then, i cant tell my doc all these and i feebly said "Ok.. if you think so".. And the beauty is, my mom was looking at me like "Baby.. can u handle it????"

Only then i started to feel the heat.. my doc gave the instructions to the nurse to get the labor room ready and asked me to get ready for everything.. she reassured that everything will be OK and she will be with me throughout!! I Started getting ready to go to the labor room, my grandma around blessing me and giving me confidence, my mom.. highly emotional.. emotional than me i should say.. slowly went to the labor room with my people around. But once i went into the labor room i got scared seeing that seat/bed, the equipments etc etc.. Then i started PRAYING!!! GOD HELP ME WITH THIS!!!!!!

The nurse induced pain.. the pain started increasing.. very slowly in the beginning.. tolerable.. i started crying out of fear/anxiety/tension/happiness.... dunno what actually.. my mom was with me in the labor room. Then the doc came in.. checked.. then she broke my uterus opening.. simple...!!! Awwwwww... God...!!! It was sooooo damn painful!!!!

My actual LABOR contractions started.. and i just cannot define it.. There really cant be anything more painful in this world than the labor... i had contractions every 5 mins.. every 5 mins there will be a "PAIN" (withing quotes!!) for like 10 mins and go off.. i kept yelling.. yelling and yelling.. my mom could not stand me yelling like that and went outside... my grandma came into the labor room!! She held hands tightly and kept telling "You are perfectly fine.. just keep going...".. ok paati.. agreed.. but keep going is like verrrryyyy difficult!!!

I begged my doc to do a C-section for me... begged her that i cant stand the pain anymore.. but she was very clear in what she was doing.. all she told me was "Just keep quiet and cooperate with me! Do not shout and lose your energy.. keep pushing hard.." Man... I HATE THE WORD PUSH!!!!!!

So i did try cooperating with my doc.. pushing hard.. crying on one side.. yelling on the other... praying on the other... praying that it all could be over soon and i could see my baby very soon...

Then it happened.. at 8.50 PM i gave a looooonnnnggg cry.. which i think the entire hospital could have heard.. but all i heard was the cry of my baby... my little one.. the one who was inside me for like 9 months.. My doc, lifted him upside down and showed me "Here is your child!!" and there were tears in my eyes.. All the pain was gone.. all the discomfort was gone.. There was only one thing that was running in my mind.. "My baby!!!" :)

Thanks to the Almighty for giving me so much strength to handle this.. Thanks to my Doc for helping me to bring my baby into this world.. Thanks to all my family members for supporting me throughout.. and Thanks to my hubby for making me a mother.. :)

So here i am.. My child is already 2 months old and is keeping me busy all day/night!! My little angel :)

Joy of Motherhood

The Joy of Motherhood - that's probably what i have to say. Well.. am now in my final trimester or i should literally say, final days of my pregnancy as i hardly have another 15 more days to go :)
I can feel my "kutty" baby now, getting set to come out anytime. He/She is all busy kicking, rolling, doing what not inside my tummy and i can feel everything damn thing the little one does :) Its fun.. it really is fun but scary at times!! But more than being fun, its a very emotional feeling running inside me when i feel the little one do something inside me! Yeah.. Am scared that my little one should be safe inside, am anxious to know what he/she is going through, am worried that the little one inside is comfortable... and the list goes on and on.... All kinda mixed emotions!!
So far things have been good.. just that the entire month i have never slept in the nights, too much acidity and heart burns, urgency to pee (God... how many times will i go to the loo!!!!), hunger like a beast!!! But its all worth it when i think about that little one inside me! And boy.. i really am gonna miss all this in another 15 days or so....
Sometimes i think how great God is.. How beautifully he has formulated this theory.. And now that my little one is fully grown, its so beautiful to see him/her shaking his/her hands legs in the scan.. so small... but so beautiful.. i was in tears.. literally..!!
And yeah.. LABOUR... i have started reading a little about it and learning a lot about it from my friends and family just to be mentally ready for things.. and i should say this.. it is "damn scary"! :( I really dunno how am gonna cope up with things and from what people say its gonna be "horrible"!!! But again.. looking at the brighter side of things.. the output of it is gonna be my angel.. so again its worth it... so i keep telling myself "Prithi..!!! Look at the brighter side of it" (And it is not easy!!;))
So why blog now.. i havent been blogging from my first trimester.. why now.. simple.. not able to sleep and i thought i can throw up something that i had within me for quite long into a blog..!!!
So people.. here we go.. another 15 more days.. the countdown has begun...!!!!
PRAY FOR ME!!!!!!!!! :)

The new momma on the block!!

I don't think i can ever forget this day in my life!! It was 10th of Aug. I came back home from works around 7.00PM and was feeling a little uneasy. I puked out the milk i had in the evening. So being a little doubtful and more curious, i prayed to all the gods possible and took a home pregnancy test. And guess what.. IT WAS POSITIVE!!
I really dunno how to describe the emotion i had at that moment.. I was happy, extremely excited, anxious, was crying.... everything at the same damn time...!! My hubby was not around, i was the only person at home.. just didn't know how to react..
In spite of know that my hubby would be driving, i called him, and he picked it up too..!! God.. its all happening too fast.. then i asked him to come home as soon as possible telling i had a good news for him.. and he guessed it right...!!
We went to the doc the same day and i was already 7 weeks pregnant..!! WOW...!!!! :)
Now.. as time goes by.. i am 12 weeks pregnant.. but the excitement, the happiness, the emotions have not subsided even a bit for both of us.
Every time in the scan when we see that tiny little thing, growing inside me, pumping its tiny little heart so damn fast.. the feeling at that moment cannot be expressed.. Its what is the Miracle of Life..!!
Yeah.. there are a few difficulties.. i keep throwing up every meal i eat... i have lost the interest to eat.. i get weird dreams at night.. i don't sleep properly.. i keep peeing every now and then.. but its all damn worth for that tiny little baby growing inside me..!! :)
Yeah i know.. i am already talking like a MOTHER.. but still.. its the most amazing feeling one can ever have..!!
So here i come.. the new MOMMY-TO-BE :)
But you know what, i truly get paranoid when i dont have any of these symptoms even for a day!! Weird huh..??? Btw.. my kid has already got his/her hands and legs and is happily playing around in my tummy :)

Mother..!!!!!

She got up at 6.00 AM that morning.. it was the day after her daughter's marriage.. last evening, she had dropped her daughter off in her in-law's house, with visibly happy tearful face, and blessed her with a good life ahead. Today, early in the morning, she wakes up to see a house empty, with pin drop silence. Three days back, this house was full of noise and people around, the bride - her daughter was running here and there, dressing up, applying mehendi, chatting with people, deciding what to wear, etc. She has been running around her daughter to make sure her daughter is comfortable at all times. And now, the same home, with no sound, with no life, the mother looks at the decorations made in the house, everything looks very pretty, but nothing is meaningful now, her most lovable daughter is not there...!!! Oh yeah.. her daughter is now someone's wife..!!! A contented mother, who is happy that she has done her duty correctly by choosing a perfect match for her daughter, at the same time, a mother who is missing her daughter more than anything in life..!!!
She slowly gets up, thinks of making coffee for herself, then starts remembering those days when the first thing in the morning, she used to scream at her maximum voice to wake her daughter up...!! She thinks of those golden days when her daughter sleepily pulls her next to her and talk with her..!!! She thinks of those moments when her daughter made her a cup of coffee..!!!!!
She started becoming a little lonely when she knew that her daughter got a job in Bangalore and she is going to stay away from her...!!! But she was damn happy for her... you know, she is not like any normal mother who says sentiments are more important than anything. She is a lady of practicality. She made her daughter understand the importance of education, the importance of knowledge, the importance of a career. She was her daughter's inspiration..!! Well.. she herself is a teacher by profession.. teaching for the past 20 years.. and trust me, she is not an inspiration only to her daughter, but to every other student she had come across..!!!
She has always thought that her daughter was her only support in life.. mentally, physically, emotionally or whatever you call it..!! Now she feels as though, her entire strength is been pulled out from her...!!! Of course, she understands that this is what is life and she is very happy for her daughter... but she is not able to accept the fact that her daughter is not around her anymore..!!!! Mothers...!!! Goddess..!!!!!
She thinks of every trivial thing her daughter has done to her... even after going to Bangalore for work, she and her daughter used to be on the phone every night for hours, she now thinks whether it will be possible!!!! Her daughter used to come home atleast once in 2 weeks, for her daughter cannot be without meeting her for such a long period, she now thinks whether this will happen again ever!!!!
She knows her daughter's temper and she is worried as to how her daughter will manage in her in-laws house!! She knows what a lousy cook her daughter is, she wonders how her daughter is gonna manage things!! Man... how many things can she worry about..!!!!!!!!!!
She herself is a daughter, a lovable sister, a wife, a teacher, she is a doctorate, she knows the world, she is in contact with most of the top most people in the industry, but when it comes to her daughter, she is totally, emotionally bonded. She is with full of love, full of care, full of emotions, full of concern..!!!
Hats off to you mom..!!! Love you forever..!!!!